This is the classic 'fresh start' blog post. I'm looking for an outlet and focus for my efforts. I'm part way through a lifelong journey of self-discovery (doesn't that sound cliche), and I feel like I'm on the precipice of something new.
I've decided to get back to blog writing. I started a new blog on blogger that I'm going to also publish to facebook, but I used to love LJ so much, I figured it wouldn't hurt to just cross post them here, see if any of the old crowd was still around. Also here is more private, so I might add some more personal elements that I don't want out in the open. Anyway, here's the new blog, It'll be Fun
A handful of things have converged this September to place me poised for a new chapter of development.
I discovered the book Always Hungry? over the summer, thanks to my doctor, and have begun to radically change my relationship with food, especially processed carbohydrates and sugars. This is reshaping my eating habits, and changing my body for the better.
My adorable vintage apartment is slowly becoming a souring deal. I'm getting less and less bang for my buck so to speak. I am pursuing a larger space to live in, which hopefully will afford some of the amenities I am doing without.
Despite seeking a larger space, I must accept that I have accrued the flotsam and jetsam of several years of solo living and must needs pare down my belongings. Especially my clothing. I have two separate scheduled
My band, DarkHorse, which I've played with for a few years is having a personnel change and taking a short hiatus. I'll be stepping into a larger leadership role because our band leader, and lead guitar player, who is also my boyfriend of nearly 3 years, is moving away to attend University. He's not leaving the group, but from his distance, I'll need to step up in more of the organizational leadership roles.
In his own quest for authentic self, he's also decided that staying together isn't going to work for him. Despite our mutual love and respect, I'll be finding myself single, and without a romantic partner.
I am auditioning for a straight play for the first time in years. Theater has waxed and waned as a huge part of my life and the prospect of acting on stage again has me nervous and excited. I've spoken with the director and am very optimistic about my chances, though regardless of if I am cast, I'll be helping with the production. I'll be taking advantage of the hiatus that DarkHorse is taking to commit fully to a play.
I keep telling myself I'm going to write a song. I need to stop being a person who is GOING to write a song and be a person who is writing a song. This video I stumbled across today is a large part of what has initiated this burst of activity.
I've started out the school year a slightly bored 3rd year teacher who is also being honored for leadership. I'll be participating in a union sponsored group of Early Career Leadership Fellows, this opens up my imagination to what the future of my career might hold, be it teacher leadership, administration, or instructional coaching or research.
One of my primary hobbies over the last decade, The Society for Creative Anachronism, has felt somewhat forced and empty the last few years. I did some soul searching and trying new things at an event in September which told me a lot about what I do and do not want from the SCA. I feel like I'm making progress redefining how the SCA will play a role in my life and what inspiration and creative or social outlets I can find there.
As a result of upheaval and renewal I will write. I will write for accountability, for reflection, for a sounding board, in order to share my discoveries with others, and to track my progress.
I've been meaning to make this list for awhile. These are TV shows I have liked and watched most or all of.
Alias, Angel, Avatar: The 10th Kingdom, The Last Airbender, Battlestar Gallactica, Bones, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Castle, Doctor Who, Dead Like Me, Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog, Dollhouse, Eureka, Firefly, Freaks and Geeks, Fringe, Fruits Basket, Full Metal Alchemist, Glee, The Guild, Grimm, Happy Town, How I Met Your Mother, Jim Henson's The Storyteller, Lost Girl, Mad Men (only on S1), My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, The New Girl, Numb3rs, Once Upon A Time, Psych, Q.I., Robin Hood: BBC, Rome, Star Trek: OS, Star Trek:TNG, Star Trek:DS9, Star Trek: Voyager, Star Trek: Enterprise, Torchwood, True Blood
Movies I love: Across the Universe, Adaptation, Avalon, Avengers, Back to the Future, Blade Runner, Blazing Saddles, The Book of Eli, Brick, The Butterfly Effect, Captain America, Casablanca, Cashback, Cowboys and Aliens, Crash, Darby O'Gill and the Little People, Elaine Stritch: At Liberty, Hot Fuzz, I Capture the Castle, Kate & Leopold, The Lord of the Rings (I, II, III), Love Actually, Moulin Rouge, Penelope, Pleasantville, The Prestige, The Princess Bride, Repo! The Genetic Opera, Requiem for a Dream, Robin Hood: Men in Tights, Serenity, Spaceballs, Star Wars (IV, V & VI), Stardust, Stranger then Fiction, V for Vendetta, Wall-E, Young Frankenstein,
My LJ paid account was set to expire... right around now. Guess who just gave me a free month of paid time. I didn't notice the down time at all. Well whoop-dee-do. If I go back to paying for any account, it will probably be DW, though I'm not using blogging enough lately to justify the expense TBH, though having less user pics will royally suck.
1. Calliope Meets Frank by Alasdair Fraser and Natalie Haas Instrumental The first melody in this medley is the very first song I learned, purposely, by ear, from a CD when I was 12, at my parents request, thus proving I could do it. It was from a different album (The Road North, by Alasdair Fraser and Paul Machallis). When I heard this version, I fell in love all over again. It is the absolute number one song that I can count on to put me in a good mood no matter what.
2. Raise Your Glass by Pink So raise your glass if you are wrong In all the right ways, all my underdogs We will never be, never be anything but loud And nitty gritty, dirty little freaks Won't you come on and come on and Raise your glass!
3. Heaven by Los Lonely Boys So I just got to show some faith And just keep on giving, how far is heaven Lord can you tell me, how far is heaven This song also inevitably makes me happy. It helped me look to the light at the end of the tunnel more then once when I ran into rough times.
4. Born This Way by Lady Gaga There's nothin' wrong with lovin' who you are" She said, "Cause he made you perfect, babe" "So hold your head up girl and you'll go far, Listen to me when I say"
I'm beautiful in my way 'Cause God makes no mistakes I'm on the right track, baby I was born this way.
If you've ever met me, or even if you haven't, you know I have unshakable confidence.
5. The Boxer by Simon and Garfunkle In the clearing stands a boxer And a fighter by his trade And he carries the reminders Of every glove that laid him down And cut him till he cried out In his anger and his shame "I am leaving, I am leaving" But the fighter still remains.
I grew up listening to this, and similar songs, and while I don't particularly resonate with the lyrics of this song, there's this percussion sounds, it sounds almost like a slamming door, that I remember very distinctly noticing as a child.
6. Helplessly Hoping by Crosby, Stills & Nash Helplessly hoping her harlequin hovers nearby Awaiting a word Gasping at glimpses of gentle true spirit he runs Wishing he could fly Only to trip at the sound of goodbye The rhyming scheme and alliteration in the piece have always resonated with me.
7. Affirmation by Savage Garden I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality I believe that trust is more important than monogamy I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul I believe that family is worth more than money or gold I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires
So well articulated.
8. >Higher by The Sugar Beets You are wise and beauty in my eyes, and You have the power to make the people rise, and You have known this since you were a child, and You are love and magic in disguise now ...
This band is my violin teacher's band, if you watch the video, he's the fiddler in the live section. For a better idea of what the song actually sounds like though, either click the link in the title, or skip in the video until about 6:30. I learned this song from him, and I always loved the sort of metaphysical lyrics. Plus the hornpipe in the middle is DAMN fun to play!
Instrumental Ok. You get a video of me. :P I posted this before, but I couldn't find the version of The Lover's Waltz that I REALLY love, and so I figured I'd give you this one, which includes a few bonus pieces from the same CD. I love this song because it's sweet and sentimental. That doesn't entirely come across in my playing of it. On review, my versions a bit... quick. But you get the idea.
Ps. I'm boring with album names and totally ripped the title off from my favorite poem. So sue me ;) Should have been in bed hours ago. Oops.